Roanoke of Roanoke Hall: A Romance — page 181: what you’re looking at

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Roanoke of Roanoke Hall. 175 convicted her of inconstancy, falseness, self- seeking, @ hundred faults which I knew the while had never had, could never have, an abiding-place in her pure, innocent mind ; and then J fell into a slough of self-reproach, in which I erected higher than ever the idol which, but a minute before, I had been striv- ing to drag down into the mud. She was true, she was loving—above all, she was right. Who was I to expect her to brave a father’s anger, and to face the struggles of poverty for my sake ? In time this reasoning prevailed, and the first effervescence of my anger and despair having dwindled considerably, I felt myself able to settle down to my usual nightly studies with a fair amount of calmness; but though I no longer felt constrained to start to my feet at intervals and restlessly pace the room, I was nevertheless quite incapable of fixing my attention upon the volume before me. I felt at the same time excited and depressed. My mind was filled with unac- countable apprehensions, while my senses were in a condition of preternatural acute- ness, The small noises which, as a rule, ( lo tOOG © comichbooks.com